| my peom to my hometown. (jacksonville) |
[Jan. 8th, 2006|03:21 pm] |
I have a speech I've prepared.. I would love you to hear it. I have been up here for way to long, and I simply can not bear it.. The people up here are Quite Bazaar,The alcohalics and drugz are.. If you came and visited this place you'd leave here in a quick haste,You told me to make the best of it,I tried it,But this place has turned to shit. The primary thing here huntin and fishin, But what I need most is a job that's missin. If we could leave here today, we both surly would,Though mom is Currently stuck here, she would rather I should. I saw that the crime rate peaks everyday, Tyrone is no place for good willed people to stay. So inconclusion hear my plea, PEASE! let me come back to sanity.
ANd here's a P.S " mom completly agrees.." |
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| I like grapes.... |
[Jul. 30th, 2005|01:17 pm] |
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| |  cheerful | ] |
| [ | music |
| | coffee shop music.. | ] |
Hey people..
i know i haven't been on here in a while.. I am alive..I'm in school.. Homeschooling is bullshit.. because no way is it your pace.. it's at the companys pace.. and damn are they slow....
I hope all is well with the old gang..
I know we have gone our separate ways.. but i'd still say hi once in a while.. |
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| whew.... |
[Jun. 1st, 2005|08:46 pm] |
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.. In seven days i will be flying to Texas..to see him.. It will be fun to see him again |
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| Tomorrow, Tomorrow |
[May. 31st, 2005|10:44 pm] |
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Tomorrow is today.. today is the new tomorrow.. sounds very unreal.. but is it? |
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| life today... |
[May. 19th, 2005|10:52 pm] |
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| |  drained | ] |
| [ | music |
| | nothing.. | ] |
Lately things have been difficult for me.. Because of Josh.. I'm confused with the entire situation... I think about him non-stop.. I keep feeling like he's standing right behind me everywhere.. Things have gotten out of hand. I had A night mare.. the past couple of nights. about him and this snake he recently bought.. A balled python.. not too crazy about em.. but anyways.. In the dream i was asleep in bed. and the snake was trying to attack me.. Then everything flashes.. and I find myself walking in a room and the snake has his mouth locked onto joshes face.. (covering his entire face..) Then i wake up.. and i'm freakin out thinkin there is a snake in my bedroom. everything thing has just gotten really weird latley// I don't know..especially when I dreamed about something and then i see something exactly the same the next day on the T.v. though it was a diffrent person... |
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| hahahaha |
[Apr. 30th, 2005|08:18 pm] |
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| |  irritated | ] |
| [ | music |
| | the thoughts in my head | ] |
You are a maniac
killer.
It doesn't matter who they are and what they
have or haven't done. You still want to kill
them. And for a simple reason only; it's fun.
Seeing people in pain is like ecstasy. Maybe
you have some sort of mental problems or you
are this way because of previous deep scars,
only you know. But now you are sadistic and
maybe you only like to see a special group of
people be in pain (e.g. preps). However you are
not the most social person in the bunch and
people think you are weird. That bothers you
somewhat but atleast you can entertain yourself
with daydreaming about killing them. After all,
they have no idea what's coming.
Main weapon: Explosives and torture
equpiment
Quote: "Insanity: a perfect
rational adjustment to an insane world" -
R.D. Lang
Facial expression: Wicked smile
What Type of Killer Are You? [cool pictures]
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| werd... |
[Apr. 17th, 2005|06:04 pm] |
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| |  hungry | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Sounds of the T.V (Independents day) | ] |
Today was a good day i got to hang with my friends today.. normally were all busy. I am going to miss everyone. when i move (hopefully) next weekend... Well. I kinda wish i wasn't leaving too.. Hope fully I will keep in contact with everyone.I know i will with josh and jerry.. but i don't know about everyone else.. |
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| a good day |
[Apr. 9th, 2005|09:06 am] |
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| |  excited | ] |
| [ | music |
| | gravity of love-> Enigma | ] |
today.. i'm feeling better than ever. I know josh got my e-mail. And he responded to it. and that shows.. how things might go. He wants to see me in texas. I'm probly gonna visit him for a couple of weeks. it's not that bad. I wish i could go to iowa with him.. but I have a feeling that will not be possible..Because one were are not a couple.. and two .since he's been in Iraq for so long he probly won't be the same. And I want to see what he's like anyway. And I am galde he didn't say no to maybe going back were we left off. We shall see. .. I really miss him. and I told him how i feel. and he said the is happy that i told him how i feel. it made him think to.. But hey you never know.. he might not love me andymore... i'm gonna hope for the best.. l8tr |
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[Mar. 11th, 2005|08:14 am] |
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| |  mellow | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Queen- Bohemian Rhapsody | ] |
Your Brain is 46.67% Female, 53.33% Male |
Your brain is a healthy mix of male and female
You are both sensitive and savvy
Rational and reasonable, you tend to keep level headed
But you also tend to wear your heart on your sleeve |
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| (no subject) |
[Mar. 11th, 2005|08:14 am] |
You Are In a Good Mood |
Today, you're feeling pretty together and happy.
While not everything is going you're way, you're keeping things in perspective.
And it seems like things are looking up for you! |
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| WHOOAOAA |
[Mar. 11th, 2005|08:12 am] |
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| |  blank | ] |
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| | Nelly- St. louie | ] |
| SAMANTHA |
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is for |
Stylish |
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is for |
Abstract |
| M |
is for |
Marvelous |
| A |
is for |
Adaptable |
| N |
is for |
Naive |
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Temperamental |
| H |
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Humorous |
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Amazing |
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| hello all you crazy basterds, EH! |
[Oct. 3rd, 2004|10:46 pm] |
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| |  optimistic | ] |
| [ | music |
| | american pie...... | ] |
well today I was talkin to me friend. And i say, "Hey you know
I wrote some peoms, Eh!? And they were like.. Nah, tell me
about ye poems... I said it's about fuckin love, EH...
There like .. real'ey .. well thats a grand thing you done there,
I was like FUCKK NOooE' theys a bunch of crock.... cause' love
is abunch of CROCK....hehehe.. i'm just joken you baterd, EH..
They started laughin, and said you had me thr'e for a minute.. hehe..
well i must be going and play some pool, you dumb basterds, EH!
HAHAHA |
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| love me.... |
[Sep. 15th, 2004|05:26 pm] |
Why did you leave me for ruin,
I was harmless around you,
I tryed not to get in your way,
but you treat me like your puppet,
now I gave myself to you, you
spit on me like I disqust you,
so what the fuck did I do wrong,
Is it that I seem to find love in
all the wrong places, or is it really,
all the wrong people,I think it's that
It's not what I did or didn't do it,
the fact that you gave me artifical
love, well you know what people ,
Fuck all of you! i'm sorry i'm not good enough for all of you, i'm just me sorry......
love must be like having a broken heart forever.. |
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| this is nice to know |
[Jul. 23rd, 2004|01:27 pm] |
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| my emotions are skattering like flies, comeing out a jar |
[Jul. 17th, 2004|11:30 am] |
| [ | mood |
| |  awake | ] |
| [ | music |
| | sounds of the keyboards | ] |
this week went from good, bad, to worst. everything that I say comes out wrong. I can't speak without, hurting someones feelings, or pissing them off. I am obviously someone who likes to mess things up. I am seeing my self as a problem child. YEAh, think positive right? well that doesn't always work. because I start thinking about all the wrong that i've done and how if i did think in a positive way i wouldn't be like i am today. If i didn't do the things I did (i'm not talking about the jeremy situation so shut up) . I wouldn't be sam.I don't know how many times I say that. I live with some of the coolest people i have ever met. and a couple more live just down the street. THey have problems toO.... but, they are probly smart enough not to start anything. I know if I don't change I will loose my friends, loose the place i'm staying at. I already lost something once again. And I may have an opportunity to have it back someday. I don't know why it would, seeing as how I made it look bad. and it was entirly wrong for me to say shit like I did. I'm very fuckin aware of it. I just want people to leave me alone about it. from what i understand. jeremy and i have discussed it. and it's cool now, but it still wasn't cool i said it. and i agree.... anyways. I would kinda hope people don't jump on me about my problems. i'm already seeing my mistakes . i've been working on them. like the controlling, I quit telling jeremy to take me somewhere. instead i ask him.and my attitude problem. like, the day i went outside to get my hat. I shouldn't have said move out my fucking way i'm going to get my hat. yeah that was completely assinine of me. I mean yeah i was excited to have my hat back after a week in a half. but I still should have been cool about it. i need to appologize to danny. I see that it's never to late to appologize. especially since it's still brought up..so it's a perfect time. I really have to appologize to megan and mom about snapping at them . it's really not kosher. They let me in thier home and i treat them like that. if i was them i sure as hell wouldn't tolerate it. one because it's a full house with 7 people, and two because it's just added stress thats not needed. ... i'm going and applying for more jobs, I reaaly need one. I need to go to wolfson and get another paper for me to be able to go to wolfson while living here.. I wrote enough right now. l8terdayz everyone- |
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| I'm done letting my mind makeing my decisions |
[Jul. 7th, 2004|11:59 am] |
| [ | mood |
| |  stressed | ] |
| [ | music |
| | <>- kelly osbourne | ] |
AHHHHHHHH, I can't stand all the nonsence things going on in my brain it won't go away. SO i'm gonna make it simple............ I love jeremy, I want to be with him.I don't give a fuck what anyone thinks , i don't give a fuck if it makes anyone feel uncomfortable.... my mom and i have a love hate relationship! my brother needs to be confronted about the past. my mind has a mind of it's own. and it''s making me sick. I'm not eating right. but when my grandmothers an ass and won't buy grocerys for the house, what do expect me to do while i wait to get a job. i will finish this later.... |
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